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… and it becomes her.

It's creeping back again
It's settled comfortably on my shoulders
I can feel it on the back of my head 
and on the nape of my neck
Its icy fingers clutching, boring its nails deep within
It's a grip that can’t be broken 
But this time I know better than to fight back
This time I don’t rebel
I don’t wriggle with desperation
I don’t shriek with fright
There is a calm inside of me 
That is frightening
A strength darker than I have know before
A me I wasn’t acquainted with
She scares me 
But her presence is comforting
She is armoured 
And ready to face even the devil in his home
She astounds me
Leaves me breathless
As she puts her hand on my shoulder 
And lets me know without saying a word
I know you been waiting to melt into strong hands
Let me be that for you 
Let me show you that 
You have the strength 
The brute force to bring down the skies.
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Anger Management

Breathe. 
Rise above,
And let it go…

Breathe. 
Hold your head high,
Don’t shake it at their follies 

Breathe. 
Rise above,
And let it go…

Breathe. 
Let them be,
Don’t focus on their stupidity

Breathe. 
Rise above,
And let it go…

Breathe. 
Find your strength
Focus on your worth 

Breathe. 
Rise above,
And let it go…

Breathe…
Breathe,
Breathe.

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Desolate Despair

Its creeping back again
Its settled comfortably on my shoulders
I can feel it on the back of my head 
and on the nape of my neck
Its icy fingers clutching, boring its nails deep within
Its a grip that can’t be broken 
But this time I know better than to fight back
This time I don’t rebel
I don’t wriggle with desperation
I don’t shriek with fright
There is a calm inside of me 
That is frightening
A strength darker than I have know before
A me I wasn’t acquainted with
She scares me 
But her presence is comforting
She is armoured 
And ready to face even the devil in his home
She astounds me
Leaves me breathless
As she puts her hand on my shoulder 
And lets me know without saying a word
I know you been waiting to melt into strong hands
Let me be that for you 
Let me show you that 
You have the strength 
The brute force to bring down the skies.
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Writer’s Block

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Faceless

Where you seek for the colour,
I search for the twinkle in their eyes. 
Where you look towards their skin colour,
I see history unfold.

When you look at their wrinkles,
I see the wisdom weighing heavy. 
When you see their pimples,
I see their innocence bursting. 

As you seize them up in size,
I only look for their light. 
As you find each of their flaws,
I see them find a way to glow. 

You see them now. 
I see them through eternity.

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Love that breaks you

I remember falling in love with you, 
Noticing the little movements of your fingers, 
As you held your phone, and how I wished to be held by you. 
The shape of your face, and every little feature, 
Wondering when I could drown in your eyes. 
 
Every conversation we had,  
how you smiled, and looked my way, 
Brown guilty eyes and little white lies... 
Red flags that I ignored, for who is perfect? 
 
Me slowly letting you in and you constantly letting me down. 
As I fell in love, not only with you, but our little world, 
The city night lights, and the salty breeze of the ocean 
I spent all the love I saved, for what would I treasure without you? 
And how suddenly, you made me hate this city.  
 
I don’t remember falling out of love with you, 
Was it when I won’t see your alligator tears, 
Or when I finally did see them for the very first time. 
Your apathy feeling like a wound in salt. 
For it is you who broke me first.    

 

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Waters of Love

In the candle lit room, amidst the golden hues,
A whisper that downs me in cold shivers;
"You will not be able to see me or hear me. 
But you will be able to feel me."

Flowing in watered love,
Trembling in its divine presence,
I still felt you, in between the sheets,
From miles away, gasping between memories, and dreams.

Blinded in spasms of frenzy,
Deafened by euphoric bliss,
Shuddering for your next touch,
Fondling with my sensibilities.

Feeling the sweet pangs of pain in my wrist,
As I smile, again at the feel of you,
Even though you aren't here to be seen or heard.
I am still able o feel you, after all this time.

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She lives in Solitary

You ask me why am I a loner?
How can you spend so much time in solitary?
But really, what other options do I have…
You expect me to change who I am,
As I try to live up to your standards and ideologies in life?
Believe in you more than I do in myself. 
You want me to let go of my principles,
So that I can be more fun. 
And yet, every day, I watch you mock those that walk with you. 
You go around pointing out their flaws
And you think my way of life is wrong?
They say I have trouble fitting in…
I say, I could fit in… it’s easy… 
Have you ever tried to be alone instead?


I bet you would not even survive the day,
What will you do in the night?
Fears coming at you from all direction…
It’s no wonder, you prefer to pretend to fit in…
For if you were alone, 
You would soon run out of the lies that you could tell yourself.

I am a loner, for I know who I am,
I can live in solitary for I do not lie to myself.

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No Bully Zone

Why do people struggle with showing kindness?
Was it not among the very first things that you were taught
Be nice, show kindness, to everyone
No matter who they are
Do not ruin your karma for them
They will eventually get what they deserve.
You just continue to be nice and kind,
And the best version of yourself. 
Watch as you get everything that you wished for,
As you grow together with the rest. 

Feels like I am the only one who paid attention in that class.
The rest of the world does not see anything wrong,
In being unnecessarily harsh,
No one tries to put themselves in your shoes,
As you continue to put them first. 
When did my niceties and acts of kindness become a weakness in this world?

And do I really wanna be a part of such a world?

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Faux Fallacy

I thought you a friend but you are a tower of facade
Keep me under your ground, 
Dimming light and energy 
You are a slow burn of jealousy, 
now brimming callously 
Chipping away your promises of potency.

The sweet words falling are a lie, fallacy, faltering 
A mistake can only last so long and repeat one too many times
I'm sick of the fables but I still keep your fuckery locked inside, 
not retching, snitching to keep the peace.

We don't dish the dirty laundry 
We simply rid it out and send it away
If this is the best you can offer you can take it elsewhere
You are a curse that I happily renounce.

Go eat, flourish in someone else's town
Know that no one will entertain this for long,
Only those who don’t see the façade carry on,
But how much longer will you be able to put it on?

Suffocation, frustration, and the faux…
Keep coming up one by one, 
Push them down like you did me,
But you cannot keep them forever at bay.

Unlike me, they might not be so kind,
To give you the space and time,
Until I walked out of this shit show you call a life.
They will come back with a vengeance instead.

Be prepared, and keep the provisions ready,
There is a storm incoming, 
One that you may not be able to ride out.
I am just glad I could keep my head straight,
And at the right time, walked out.

In collaboration with @dimshadesofgrey click on the tag to go to her instagram page.

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